I know it wasn't easy to write this. I've recently written about my husband's illness, our long wait (still waiting) for disability and my recent layoff. Your writing gets deeper and better as you journey through this wilderness. You're a shining example of trusting God in the storm and living in the present. I know God's got the next steps for you! May I send you a message from Bill Johnson that I think will encourage you? I just love what he says about provision.